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fucked up is the world where a straight guy just being himself is hands and yards attractive to gay men as opposed to straight women? The security that I present by being a legitimate and interested individual drives off females but draws in males. I suppose it comes down to the same factor that when one is not a kind and sincere male females are that much more interested. I suppose it comes down to the fact that people want what they can believe that they cannot have. I certainly wish that I could evince in the mind of women that I am attracted to that I am what they cannot have. The problem there results from the fact that when I become interested I cannot not let them know that I find them entirely interesting. I suppose the real question is: when can I stop being such a putz?

When the significant majority of one's experiences with the opposite sex involve friends turned lovers or first meetings leading to coital interactions, one becomes a total dating n00b. It then occurs upon hindsight immediately afflicted from leaving an encounter that the other was prepared for an introductory kiss. I'd ask why this is so, but the initial sentence pretty much sets the tone for where from this idea comes. Acknowledgment of this fact does not make it more palatable, it makes it thus more frustrating instead. Stupid dating n00b, I'd say. Feelings of such are so alien to this careful mind that the hindsight feels so bitter. The mind questions whether it has swayed the potential applicant to the pressures of lips to be disinterested or is the enticement perhaps strengthened by the initial avoidance. The question then is whether it will be interpreted as tenderness toward personal space or weakness of character.

Damn this will and its self-directed "respect" of personal space. Should those quotation marks be there or is it simply some perverse defense mechanism?

Stupid mind and its taunting to not perform and then to regret the nonperfomance.

[via dayofbirth.co.uk courtesy of StumbleUpon]

• You were born on a Wednesday.
• Your star sign is Gemini.
• Your birthstone is Emerald.
• The season was Spring.
• You were born in the Chinese year of the Horse.
• The US President was Jimmy Carter (Democratic).
• The UK Prime Minister was James Callaghan (Labour).
• You are 31 years 3 months 3 days old.
• It is 270 days until your next birthday.
• In dog years you are 217 years old.
• You are 11,418 days old.
• You are approximately 274,051 hours old.
• You are approximately 986,582,875 seconds old.

And results for May 31 according to The History Channel

You're on my friends list! I wanna know you. I want to know 33 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, talk every day or already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine. I just want to know you. Copy this and post it with your answers in the comments. My answers are in the comments as well.

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

it's a cruel thing that i could go and buy a drink now but not a book.

"you're a cruel man, jack sparrow"

I have risen.

Still feel dead though.

Here I sit upon my new laptop, poised on the eve of my fulltime return to the UA. I'm certain that I'm prepared for the challenge this time and will not allow failure to happen again.
Linear Algebra Math 215 MWF 10-10:50
Vector Calculus Math 223 MTWR 12-12:50
Symantics Ling 300 MW 3-4:15
Language in Development Ling 341 TR 2-3:15

if it looks like piss, smells like piss and tastes like piss; then you just drank piss.

...i do love to quote that jesus only ever represented himself as the "son of man", and since james is the brother of jesus, i thought this was interesting. i like that he crashed from a high and was stoned to death. well, i find it an interesting, potentially ironic, cause of death, to say the least.

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James, brother or stepbrother of Jesus, a man revered as a model of Jewish piety and commitment to God by most Jews, whether followers of Jesus or not, was sentenced to death by an illegally constituted trial. Now an old man, he died, as had Jesus, forgiving the people who had condemned him. He was known as "the Just One."

When the failed attempt to imprison Peter drove the apostles from Jerusalem, they had named James the Just overseer, or bishop, of the Jerusalem church, which was then the founding and central authority of the new faith. James stayed behind, a center of fierce controversy, because he believed and preached Jesus as messiah. At least one attempt may have been made on his life.

But few doubted his devotion to God. Some called him "the Man With the Callused Knees" because, as a priest, he spent whole days in the Temple, praying for the city and for its people.

While some Jews accepted Jesus as a prophet; some merely as a gifted teacher, and the Temple rulers denounced him as "the Great Blasphemer," James persuaded so many to become fully committed to Jesus that he alarmed the Temple authorities. "When many, even the rulers, believed," says (the Christian historian) Hegesippus, "there was a commotion among the Jews and scribes and Pharisees, who said there was a danger the whole people would be looking for Jesus as the Messiah."

The Sanhedrin summoned James to appear before it. They told the old man they knew he had great influence over the people, and they themselves recognized him as a just man. However, too many were "going astray" as regards this Jesus, and they could not let that continue.

Now Passover is coming, they said, and thousands of people would be assembled in Jerusalem. They therefore directed him to stand far above the crowd at the "pinnacle" of the Temple, to publicly repudiate Jesus, and to urge the people not to be led astray by him.
The 20-inch-long limestone ossuary, dated to about 63 A.D., once held human bones and bears an Aramaic inscription which translates, "James, son of Joseph, brother of Jesus."
Though this is not in the text, historians surmise that the council had reached a further conclusion. If James refused to do this, he stood condemned under a section of the Old Testament book of Deuteronomy that provides the death sentence by stoning for anyone convicted of "leading the people astray." A modification of this penalty allowed the victim to be first cast down from a great height, then be stoned if still alive.

So James knew exactly what was coming. But he also knew that they had provided him, in his last years, with a superb opportunity to bear witness to the whole assembled people on the occasion of their most sacred feast. Thus, he agreed and was taken to the pinnacle above the crowd. "Now tell them," ordered his accusers, "what is the Gate of Jesus" - meaning where Jesus was leading them. James's response rang out to the hushed crowd below:

"Why are you asking me concerning Jesus, the Son of Man? He sits in the Heaven at the right hand of the Great Power, and is about to come upon the clouds of Heaven."

The crowd became frenzied, yelling, "Hosanna! Hosanna! Hosanna to the Son of David!"

Realizing they had bungled the job, Hegesippus recounts, Ananus's servants hurled James from the parapet. The populace must be shown, they reasoned, that this kind of defiant conduct does not pay. People rushed to the spot where he had crashed to the floor below. They found him still alive, and echoing the prayer of Jesus: "I entreat thee, Lord God our Father, forgive them, for they know not what they are doing." In response, one of his condemners took a club which was used for beating the water out of washed clothes, and bashed him to death. One version says they placed a stone on him, and bore down on it, crushing him.

Thus perished James the Just, kinsman of Christ, who emulated him in life and death.

ok, so i'm in the az_insomniacs group, and it, by far, seemed to me that most of the posters were located in the phoenix area. being a frequent late night internet cruiser myself and located in tucson, i felt that the presence of a tucson group with a similar theme was necessary. now, i think that the group can be beneficial to all southern arizona night owls, but i did label it with tucson in the name. anyway, without further adieu, tucson_insomnia.

anyone know what the livejournal socially appropriate way to advertise a newly formed group is?

i know that on myspace it bugs the hell out of me that some advertise in forums of other groups for what are likely crap ass groups. am i alone? do livejournalists feel the same?

Sun in Gemini

The Sun is in this third sign of the zodiac from 21 May until 21 June each year. The symbol for Gemini is the Twins, and its planetary ruler is Mercury.



In Gemini the Sun is active, restless and changeable. You like plenty of variety in your everyday activities, in your friends, and even in your diet. Your interests are many and diverse--almost anything will attract your attention if only for a brief time. Truly, this is the sign of the jack-of-all-trades. As the story goes, you may find that unless you can develop your powers of perseverance, you may be the master of none. Your varied interests can result in a tendency for you to spread yourself too thin, sometimes failing to follow through on projects you've begun.



Being very curious, you want to know and experience as much as you can. Gemini is the sign of duality. You find it difficult to limit yourself to one job, to one relationship, or one hobby, as you constantly seek variety and mental adventure. You scatter your energies because you don't want to miss anything. You are a lifelong student, never tiring of learning new subjects. You collect facts and tidbits of data, but you may not always have the big picture.



To the Gemini person, communication is of utmost importance. You flourish on ideas, with a mind that is ever so quick and curious. You are a person who enjoys talking and writing. All sorts of communication ideas appeal to nature. You are aware of all that is going on around you, and you want to understand and participate in it all. You are hard to pin down, and even harder to beat in a debate. Your abilities of combining quick comprehension , and the communication of this comprehension to others, are the hallmarks of your sign. You can talk yourself into and out of situations with ease. Often Mercury people (Gemini's ruling planet is Mercury) take mischievous delight in disconcerting slower minds with their fast paced mental antics. You like to be around people, and you never do well working alone or on any routine type job.



Extremely friendly, you enjoy companionship, and really thrive on it. Just as you don't like to be without activity, you don't like to be alone. You are likely to have a very wide circle of friends with whom you enjoy many activities--movies, games, conversation, and such. You are naturally outgoing and possess a sparkling wit. You are apt to become quickly bored with conservative types that can't make a decision or agree with your need to impose change. Not being very introspective or reflective, often you don't understand your motivations or the motivations of others. So in many ways, relationships can be shallow and superficial. Your restless mercurial nature requires constant excitement and change, or you'll becomes very dispirited and morose.

Moon In Aries

An Aries Moon produces subconscious reactions in your nature that are highly assertive. You respond to life as though it was an adventure. This Moon produces one who is open to new ideas and one who is highly self-motivated. You have a strong underlying drive for success that is associated with your emotional nature. You tend to feel with your ego, as your feelings tend to compete with your ego much of the time. Your senses are quick. So much so, that you may seem pushy at times. Your temperament can be uneven, liable to flare ups at the slightest provocation. You make quick decisions, trusting your sense perceptions, and acting immediately without reflection. You jump into action from your quick feelings instead of from reason. You have an active mind, and what you are thinking is often quickly verbalized. When this emotional side of your nature is in charge, you tend to say and do things with little forethought and planning.

With Moon in Aries you're enthusiastic and naÃÃ���ve, each day becomes a new adventure. You express a joy of living and people are attracted to you for it. Even so, you have a bit of the rogue and rascal in you.

You can be emotionally detached from the people around you, somewhat reluctant to ask for help, even when you need it. The nature that has developed and the habits learned make you very independent. You feel with your ego. You don't much care for advice, and rarely follow the advice you get. There is much in your instinctive nature that is original and restless. Sometimes you get too assertive, and those that know you well realize you have a quick temper. You aren't one who always plays by the rules, as you are something of a renegade. To a degree, Moon in Aries hides a sense of insecurity behind an independent and assertive exterior.

Extremely competitive, you love a challenge from a worthy opponent. You tend to see just about everything as a challenge and everyone as an opponent. Its hard for you to give in on anything and compromise is generally an option you don't exercise. Intensely individualistic, it's hard to see someone else's point of view. Oddly enough, when it comes to a romantic partner, you'll insist on someone who is not shy about standing up to you.

Rising Libra

Libra rising produces a personality that is naturally diplomatic and sociable. Graciousness, compatibility, and sociability are your obvious personality traits. This is the sign of the scales of balance and justice. The primary quality associated with Libra is a strong sense of fair play. You can see both sides of nearly any issue, and there is always a demand in your nature that justice be served. Perhaps because of this latter trait, an amazing number of the world's most famous political leaders have had Libra on the rise.

With Libra on the rise, you are good at debate, but you are not likely to be too argumentative. You strive to win your points in ways that are shrewd and politically careful. Your fixed nature is well hidden by your cooperative demeanor.



You don't function well in discordant environments as there is an overwhelming need in your nature for harmony. Neatness and order must be maintained if you are to remain comfortable in any situation. You may constantly find yourself readjusting to align yourself to the forces around you to get an inner sense of balance. You have such an even disposition, and so much charm, that you can usually please nearly everyone. You usually try to do just that. You are one who reacts to others, and you are better suited to making your way by being agreeable and taking what comes your way almost naturally.



On the negative side of Libra rising is the tendency to maintain the status quo. You want to avoid the disruption of change and avoid making waves. You may give in sometimes to the temptations of indolence. You may have a natural tendency to say what you think will please others, rather than what you really feel. The object being to hide your true feelings for the sake of winning approval and maintaining order and harmony.

Because of your inborn peace-loving and diplomatic tendencies, you are sometimes prone to fail in the primary job of taking care of number one. You are not very good at aggressively advancing yourself. You need to concentrate on learning how to stick up for yourself and realize your identity.

Sun in Gemini/ Moon in Aries

The combination of your Sun and Moon signs makes you mentally "quick as a cat," witty, versatile, and mobile, both in mind and body. You are naturally alert, active, and aggressive. At your best, you have a very ambitious nature, asserting yourself in a positive and confident manner in whatever direction you decide to go. You are a fun companion and a dangerous opponent, especially in a battle of words. You are intellectually motivated with an inclination for study and education, a desire always to stay up to date by study and the gathering of information on vital topics. Thus, you generally have a vast fund of information, stories, and quips, and when you're with friends, you're likely to be the life of the party. You will get far in life simply because of your natural popularity and your aptness in human relations. The problem can be that you may rely too much on wit, cleverness, and quickness to replace serious application. [LOL] Nonetheless, people follow you instinctively because you seem to know where you are going and how to get there. Your sense of balance and direction is often based on a whim of the moment rather than logic and forethought. But you are a good leader because you are so sure of yourself, and because you make people feel that you think they are great, too. You are especially shrewd in business matters in a more or less a wheeler-dealer sort of way. In this you can show a selfish side, as while you are such a social person, you never forget to look out for number one. Emotionally there is nothing very deep or profound about you. [LOL, again, but ouch!] You know what you like and what you don't like, and it's hard for anyone to tie you down for very long. You need to be constantly in motion, physically and mentally.

what if there is no grand macrocosmic entity that has created a watch with a purpose that may be unclear to the cogs; what if existence is driven by these cogs microcosmically making the best of what they can comprehend? now, take a reincarnation/quantum physics leap of faith and acknowledge that the microcosmic cogs making us up are not part of a lizard that must avoid the bird and catch the bug, these microcosmic cogs are aware of their surroundings and are making atomic political decisions driving our bodies because we have this potential to take our own microcosmic selves to the next macrocosmic level and these microcosmic entities feel a drive to then take our place at this cosmic level. our potential energies, these microcosmic entities, are what create our consciences, split personalities and mood swings, as they exist on a completely different time scale wherein, potentially, entire civilizations rise and fall with each internal war we wage. they seek peace within their realm as we do within ours, but it takes a cohesive union of these chakra nation in order to benefit their individual cosmoses and thereby aid a single human entity to succeed. don't these nations of ourselves deserve the oppurtunity to experience our level? their transcendence is hindered by our own ability to reach peace and transcend.

List ten fictional figures you would have sex with (in no particular order), then tag five people to do the same.

01. Lorelei Gilmore
02. Agent Scully
03. Black Mamba, aka the Bride
04. Kali
05. Artemis
06. Eve
07. Jeannie from I Dream of Jeannie
08. Major Kira
09. The chick from Aeon Flux
10. Laylu(sp?) from Fifth Element

If you want to do it, do it.


*taken from spellbound6 *

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This one, courtesy of aguaencendida

Comment here and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

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I swear, that's how I got it.

Gemini
(May 21-June 21)
Make your environment more harmonious wherever you go. Pay attention to all your motives, including the superficial and the more profound, and you might find knotty situations untangling themselves.

But what I want is to find naughty situations entangling themselves. :(

Acquired from Ian; editted and stars added by me

I believe: we don't have to change friends if we understand friends change.

I believe: no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe: true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I believe: you can do something in an instant that will give you

heartache for life.

***I believe: it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe: you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe: we are responsible for what we do no matter how we feel.

I believe: either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe: regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at

first that the passion will fade, and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe: heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done regardless of the consequences.

I believe: money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe: my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and still have the best time.

I believe: sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

***I believe: that sometimes when I'm angry; I have the right to be angry, but it doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe: that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it does not mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe: maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe: it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe: no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe: our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe: that just because two people argue it doesn't mean they don't love each other; and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I believe: you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

***I believe: two people can look at the exact same thing and see

something totally different.

I believe: your life can be changed in a matter of seconds by people who don't even know you.

I believe: that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I believe: credentials on a wall do not make you a decent human

being.

I believe: the people you care about most in life will be taken from you too soon.

I believe: it is much easier to live as a victim than it is to live your life heroically. Because to live as a victim, all you must do is live. While existing as a hero, you must make every effort to change the things in life you wish to see evolve.

***I believe: the inhibition of sexuality creates unhealthy deviances by isolation.



I believe: you need to add you own I believe statements to this list and send it back to the person that sent it to you. Pass this on to those you care for, and even those you dont!